MY FOREVER LOVE

26 Jan

Joy oh joy

……You are a child of the universe, no less than the trees and the stars;
you have a right to be here.
And whether or not it is clear to you, no doubt the universe is unfolding as it should.

Therefore be at peace with God, whatever you conceive Him to be,
and whatever your labors and aspirations, in the noisy confusion of life keep peace with your soul.
With all its sham, drudgery and broken dreams, it is still a beautiful world. Be careful. Strive to be happy.

 Desiderata, Max Ehrmann 1927

Today I went for a service. In this service, there were many speakers and each of them had me doubling up in laughter. It was a funeral service! I got in at the time different people were reading tributes. It was amazing to hear different people speak of joyful, funny memories about the lady who was now deceased. She was such an influence in the lives of everyone she was in contact with. All these in spite of the fact that she had a disability and was not able to walk without support. She had had the condition for 17 years but what everyone kept saying was how she was a strong, cheerful lady. She was a skilled business woman who was successful in all she did.  But what impressed me most was her attitude to life. She was all she could be with all God gave her.

The last few days have been such hard days for me. I have been overwhelmed by work and school and feeling inadequate in the new role at work and as a student. I have been a walking zombie. Other than that I have been having tough conversations with God calling upon Him for answers only for Him to add more questions. So it would be fitting to say this has been the most intense and confusing week I can remember.

So you can imagine I did not expect to feel any better after attending the funeral. I did not expect to gain anything, if anything, it was going to be a distraction from the overflow of thoughts in my head. A time to forget all my worries and stand with people who were mourning their loved ones. After the funeral, my spirit was uplifted to a soaring height. How great is this God that I serve that He uses a funeral service to encourage me and give me joy. I had decided I would not turn to any human to give me encouragement or console me. I was going to encourage myself in the Lord. I was soldiering on with God but it seemed He was not going to intervene, yet He did in the strangest of places. I just got a peace of mind that He is with me constantly and I have a place on this earth for His will to be accomplished in my life and it would be done. I do not have any of my answers but I know that I am going to be fine. Today I bask in the joy that I feel and can’t explain  but am very grateful for.

You are my forever love

You are my forever love

From the bottom of my heart I’ll sing to You
From the depths of who I am I love You
With everything inside I’ll run to You
‘Cause all that I’ve become I owe to You

Francesca Battistelli

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