17 Jul

I resigned from my job well over a week ago.

I work with people, 100% of who are older than I am and think they are wiser. Maybe they are. 55% of my clients are illiterate or semi-literate. I deal with these clients’ money. I have been insulted, ignored and disrespected more than the average person. I have also been respected by many who I know will be sad to see me leave. Am glad to say I have had to work to earn that respect and I have earned it.

I have learnt to read people, anticipate reactions, and remain calm under impossible situations among other things. I have learnt to listen, how much I should listen to and know when someone’s conversation is pure hogwash. I have learnt different methods of yelling and what kind works with what kind of person. I have learnt to walk away and let situations cool down. I have learnt about team work. How to gel in but still stand out.

I have learnt that things can never get so bad that they can’t get worse. In all these I have learnt that what does not break you only makes you stronger.

I have two more weeks at the place and I was worried about how I would finish.

My anxiety was heightened when my new boss announced that it was time for the quarterly appraisals. Her boss, who was present then goes on to mention that the appraisal would be done by my old boss who knew us better. I had hoped I would evade an appraisal before I left.

I was worried about my performance and I so badly needed to finish well, so, on the morning of the appraisal I was jittery. I came in early, sat on my desk, prayed that God take control and purposed to be happy all day no matter what.

I was convinced I would score the lowest among my colleagues so you can imagine the near lack of enthusiasm when I got into the manager’s office. We discussed why I had resigned and she gave a few comments of admiration, I think. Then we started the appraisal. At the end of it all, I actually scored the highest in the branch. I was so excited and when I left the office I went to my desk to ponder on what had happened. For sure, God had checked in.

I got new understanding on why God had told me so many times that I did not need to try too hard.

I thought of why I had thought I would score poorly and realized I am too hard on myself. I feel like a failure when things don’t work out and beat myself up about it. But actually I do very well at my job. But I can’t take credit for my performance because I have many a times thought of giving up. I can only say that the past year has been God’s doing. When things would get worse I would call on God for peace and wisdom to deal with situations. Actually every solved problem felt like supernatural assistance was engaged. I was like a marionette being guided.

I am grateful that God chose to station me at my current job where I probably learnt what some people would take a life time to learn. I am honored that He has chosen me for my next assignment. I know this is a new season in my life and I purpose to trust fully in the Lord. I want to have unshakeable faith like Job.

I want to be like Shadrach, Meshach and Abednego who, in the face of a death-by-burning threat said,

“O Nebuchadnezzar, we do not need to defend ourselves before you in this matter. If we are thrown into the blazing furnace, the God we serve is able to save us from it, and He will rescue us from your hand, O king. But even if He does not, we want you to know, O king, that we will not serve your gods or worship the image of gold you have set up”

Daniel 3:16


3 Responses to “FINISHING WELL”

  1. rockhead July 19, 2010 at 7:13 pm #

    Look at you, all grown up! You did it girl, braved all the hard work, dealt with impossible people and came out victorious! All glory goes to God. Here’s to the beginning of an awesome journey….can’t wait to read your post after that one 🙂

  2. nkirdizzle July 20, 2010 at 8:45 am #

    Hold the phone!! You quit too??? That definitely takes a lot of courage!!! Here is to the next destination that is your life, and I wish you all the best in your new endeavor!

  3. lilburdy July 20, 2010 at 10:27 am #

    Thank you ladies. Let’s see what new victories lie ahead. And yes all glory to God.
    I also wish you guys the best even in your current endeavours
    God bless you

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