A LETTER TO MY 16 YEAR OLD SELF

25 Jan

Dear child,

This will be the hardest of your teen years but fear not, everything you go through will only make you stronger.

Let me start with school. This high school you are in will build you but will also damage parts of you. You will make life-long friends and acquire life-long principles. I know right now you feel like you have too many responsibilities you do not deserve but you can and will make it. In fact, responsibilities will always fall on you from now on. You will get to be stronger in time.

This is when you first heard God speak to you and what He said will be confirmed by many people later in life. It is only till now, in your early twenties (did you ever think you would get here) that you will start to build the picture, a sketch really of what path your life takes.

All that religious jargon people fed you will just traumatise and disorient you. All is not lost because you will slowly learn about who God is and how to have a relationship with Him. My dear, I have to also tell you that this learning is a life-long process I don’t think you can exhaust everything. You will lose some loved-ones but there will also be miracles in your life.

About boys and men: this was the year you met all those older guys. Well, B and T are far from you now and you’ll be glad that nothing happened with them. You will get to meet people you are far more compatible with. Remember A, you met him once at your house. You will meet again and it is from him that you will find out that men too have drama. There were others in your life but R is the one who will have the most impact not necessarily in a positive way. You will get cynical about men but there will come a time you will be indifferent. Am not sure that you get to know how to balance between the cynicism and the indifference. There will be many regrets in the future but these things, I have said will only make you stronger, sometimes harder.

Your family is alright. You won’t believe it now but mom will be one of your best friends though you will still fight as much as you agree. You will come to understand that your family is the best thing that ever happened to you. The freedom you always longed for you will have and you will slip a few times along the way too.

You will learn not to judge people. You will find yourself in those situations you judge them upon and you will not always come out better than they did. You will also learn that there is something like being too understanding and you will get burned a number of times because of that. And that sense of humour of yours will lead to a number of fallouts with people including friends. You do not learn how to fully control it even up to now.

The most important thing to know is that you will grow up. Do not be in a rush. Everything has its perfect timing. Life gets harder but you grow harder too.

With love from,

Your-kind-of-but-not-totally-battered-by-life-twenty-something-year-old-self.

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7 Responses to “A LETTER TO MY 16 YEAR OLD SELF”

  1. Suetiful January 26, 2010 at 7:41 am #

    High school was a confusing time for all of us it seems!!and these boys were many;) si u do a post??:)lol Il just copy paste this letter for myself…Im having a hard time writing mine honestly..

    • lilburdy January 26, 2010 at 10:59 am #

      The boys are not worth writing about. I guess I was too naive them days and it showed. I also had a hard time,have been writing it for the past two weeks. Writing posts for me is not as easy as Nkirdizzle…so I understand

  2. slybard January 26, 2010 at 5:20 pm #

    Hmm…interersting. Wish I could write the same. No, better still I wish I could just go back in time Hiro Nakamura style and tell my 16-year-old self to keep away from the booze and to please not have very disturbing crushes every other day.
    Oh…I’d also tell me to seriously ask one of those girls out instead of playing ‘good friend’…

    • lilburdy January 28, 2010 at 11:01 am #

      Good you learnt that lesson…there will be no more wasting time for you then from now on. Personnally I prefer straight forward guys

  3. wamathai January 26, 2010 at 8:37 pm #

    This is beautiful, i apologize for not having more to say.

  4. retracingme March 22, 2010 at 10:15 am #

    🙂 I am sixteen. & that is heaps encouraging for me. Life just seems incredibly tough at the moment with school being so hectic and friends changing all around me.
    But I guess it’s something we all have to go thru 🙂
    I thought I went thru my teen years early in high school. You know, that awkward, regretable, rebelious stage?
    I thought I was past it…
    but apparently there is more to come!

    • lilburdy March 22, 2010 at 9:46 pm #

      We all get to have different experiences and I wish you all the best in life. Keep God close, He never lies and he never disappoints

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