24 Aug

I know you.  I know it is you. I am so scared to admit it but I know that you are, my God-given one, yes you are!  How do I know this? How does a pregnant woman know the sex of the baby she is carrying even before a doctor tells her? How does a mother know when her child is in danger? Some things we just know. God has the most wonderful way of letting us know things. Maybe I should not call it intuition or instinct, it cannot be defined.

There is much more that I know about you. I know you will open up a new side of life to me. I know you are much more than I ever asked for. I know we will walk together and we will pull the oxen cart in the same way. I know you will complete the three stranded chord that is God, you and me, the chord that cannot be easily broken.

I know that we are not together yet because it is not the right time. I am not ready for you. I don’t know what’s happening on your side, are you ready for me? Are you looking for me? Have you found me as I have found you? I am so scared, too scared for my own good. Too scared to let myself go, to do the big things set out for me, too scared to live. Too scared thinking I will get hurt, but I know now it is not only about me. You have a part in this story too. So I ask you to give me some time to unfurl my wings steady but sure. I don’t want to mess you up with my ‘baggage’, that’s why I ask you to wait for me. To wait till I find the wisdom to accept happiness shared with you.

I am waiting for, waiting for you darling

Wait for me too

Wait for me as I wait for you

I am waiting for, waiting for you darling

Wait for me too

Wait for me as I wait for you

(Rebecca St. James)


6 Responses to “THIS MISSIVE”

  1. rockhead August 25, 2009 at 6:16 pm #

    Weeee….so who are you talking about?? don’t tell me it’s The One!

  2. Clement August 27, 2009 at 1:15 pm #

    sasa nini hizi?

    • lilburdy September 20, 2009 at 10:24 am #

      Hizi ni mafikira yameandikwa. What kind of a question is this?

  3. rockhead September 1, 2009 at 10:42 am #

    Oh, and it’s Rebecca St. James 🙂

  4. Sista C October 2, 2009 at 10:22 am #

    Ha ha ha…. thas funny. Ati you know he’s the one? I hope you are right coz if you are not, you are in for a rude shock. Si you gawia me your super powers so that i can also know who ‘the one’ is….lollest

    • lilburdy October 6, 2009 at 2:36 pm #

      you’ll get your own super powers in time

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